Papa, I can't believe you are gone. It's been around four months and i still wake up and start crying. I dont know how to talk to mom she is so sad and depressed, we try to keep her mind off things. I want to say the perfect things to her to make her feel somewhat better but I think it wont help so I dont say anything at all. I hope you like heaven dad. Hows' Mukul? say 'Hi' to him. I miss him also. I love you papa. I spoke to you that evening about my job interview and you sounded so happy. I just wish I would've come over that fateful night and saw you, talked and stuff. I never would've thought you would die that night. Nobody did, except god.

Siddharth tells me I should try not to think about it so much and he does his best to help me tackle things, but it seems to me that now after almost four months, it's gotten even harder to deal with. I have always been my "papa's little doll" - always...even after I was grown and married.

Papa i know your watching after me, I can feel the warmth of you being around and I love it. It makes me feel better about decisions that I make because you are near me . . . PAPA I MISS YOU SO MUCH! You will be in my heart, my prayers, my thoughts, my everything. Save a seat for me up there papa!

- Your Little Doll